Sabotaging or just Trying

Happiness is the key element of all the talks, it's something that keeps you sane. It may be a person or just a bunch of people you hang around with but it's the key element to your life. Everyone's running this race of life just to find happiness. Loneliness kills, it certainly does. It's not easy to find happiness or just think about the good everytime. I get it, you cannot just forget the half empty glass and not be sad. Sadness is a ladder towards happiness. I think i made my point clear when I said that one should find happiness in the little things but i think you need to know the importance of happiness while you search for it.

I know people who pretend to be happy but they actually aren't. A friend of mine told me this a while ago, he said as I quote, "I have 4 groups of friends and none of them can I share my true feelings with". Shocking isn't it? I used to think that he must be having the perfect friendship when he's just pretending to be happy. Another someone once said to me "Aditi you think I'm happy? I'm just trying to cope up with things". It broke my heart for real. I wonder if I can ever be truly happy since them having an amazing relationship, friendship still doesn't make them happy. Loneliness makes things worse, not having someone to talk to is just toxic. You try, obviously you do but you still aren't able to find that one friendship, that one person who you can talk to. Past is a big factor, i myself hesitate talking to someone new because I know what people have been treating me like and I know what happens when they leave, i know what happens when they tell your secrets out, i know it all.

The saddest part is you have to search and meanwhile all the negative energies pop up, they direct you towards the wrong path, not drugs or anything but self doubt, anxiety, loneliness. I think not being able to trust people is quite common, not being able to find the right person is normal. What isn't normal or okay is treating people wrong because of your past. They have got expectations which you have no right to break. What isn't okay is stopping your search for the right person. So this is for all the people who need a special person, doesn't need to be a relationship, keep looking and don't lose hope. Loneliness will kick in and there is nothing like a state of complete happiness. It's the perfect person with the little imperfections that you're looking for. There is nothing like perfection that exists in this world and you need not try and raise your standards that way. Lower your guard and be humble no matter what the past has been like because the past won't determine the future. People are different. We've got a huge population and there is a someone for everyone.

That's it for today, untill next time ♡